genta rasa

Assalam..

Someone dear to me ask this question today.

When are you getting married?

Is there is anyone you like?

Such a tough question actually.

I am afraid that I might have lost the desire to get married though.

I have so much comfort in being alone. 

Yet, at some point, it hurts so much that I end up crying alone in the darkness of night.

So far, I have denied the existence of love genes in my body.

For those things will never occur to me.

Might not have a chance maybe.

At these age, I have focused my energy more into chasing my whole life ambition.

What remain in me is only the desire to get a stable life.

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banyak merepek merapu

meluah rasa hati yang tak terluah pada manusia

dahulu aku pernah kenal dia

hampir aku serahkan seluruh hati kepadanya

walaupun aku tak kenal siapa dia yang sebenarnya

kini aku gembira bukan lagi dengannya

tetapi dengan sebuah kehidupan fantasi

dalamnya hanya ada bahagia yang aku cipta.

bahagia yang tak mungkin aku rasa dalam kehidupan realiti.